Story Bout Me

saw my fren’s comment…made a big quiestion mark in myself…

i came here for 3months oredi. is it tats y she ask stil so happening? ha…my life always being so happening . even b4 i came to japan, although complaining of boring…but some frenz stil think tat my life are so happening. hm…mayb juz bcoz of i always make my life so happening lor…

haha…i left out some story…n memorize back when i taking bath n thinking of my fren’s comment. i stil havent tel the story bout my swimming class o…had twice oredi lo. last week was the first time…i would like to thanks to my dad forcing me to attend to swiming class when i was small. although i din become a pro…but at least i know how to swim…din throw my face in front of others. hehe…another foreign student he din noe to swim at all…walking in the pool…juz to make it seems like he is attending the class. sorry tat i din accompany him. teacher did giv special attention on him…using the board n start from the beginning. we did free style n frog style tat day. i can swim bit, at least not walking in the pool, but no for 50meters ah. again i think tat, my body really weak ah….last class, we learned bout butterfly style. i onli knew a littel bit bout butterfly style…dunno how gotta turn our hands 360 degree then move forward by pushing our chest in front. bcoz of many of my classmate couldnt do it…i had a chance to learn from beginning. it’s seems to be easy when we learn step by step…but when it comes to combination of al…haha…i can even raise my hands out from the water…but then…not onli me ah…feel more like a fish than a butterfly…haha…heard tat there wil be a test…100m for each style. oooo…i am goin to die. 50m already take my life…100m…how am i gotta complete it!? if i own a swimming pool, mayb i wil pratice…everyday.hehe…i can say tat i ok wif frog style onli ah…bcoz i learned it from my dad…

to kohhai who coming to japan, depends on ur luck la…if u go to kosen which got swiming class…then practice b4 u come here ah…if not very fish one er….

wat happening in me again? hm…scholar came in oredi lo…i can spend a lot for my holidays lor…hehe! next friday…few days to go onli…

came here 3months…i am showing my tails in class lor…talking wif fren behind, o more to playing wif him ah…today sound by lecturer..hehe..sometimes sleep in class…juz for a very short while ah. since tat a big size guy sitting in front of me, juz simply lie down…n slip. then another thing…i started to joke wif japanese lecturer…wif my half pail water japanese. ya…tat lecturer really can play one ah…today i saw a gal like seducing tat lecturer. like touching lecturer’s sensitive part…not private part…haha! i was shocked ah…wow…tats how japan teacher n student would hav sex.haha!

i always think tat…distance among noe n dunno is very very very far. i can c tat distance…but can c the distance among noe n expert. tats y, i could have noe a bit about many things, but wont be the expert. haha…badminton make me think of time dad force me to go to club to play in weekends…n i din appreciate it. basketball make me think of my first yr in UTM, playing wif a fren, in the late nite n in the rain, but never play a proper game. i dun hav confidence…played tennis, n i juz noe a little, at least wont home run in tennis gua…the ping pong makes me think of the last few weeks after my big exam in UTM. juz for a few weeks, i learned to smash, from a fren. volleyball, my club over here ah…n softball…played in sport class over here.hm…anything else…ya football…i played for 5yrs in PJ class in secondary skul. haha…but i never say i noe how to play football…really…kaki bangku.hehe…

talking bout results wif fren, she got third place in class. me? dunno o…but i onli hav 優 in my result slip. wats tat? grade A lor…means wat? think urself ah..hehe…first time mah…dunno can maintain it o not ah…this result actually presuring ppl onli ah..haha! but i did satisfy n feel happy..hehe

hm…tats it ah…weather here getting hotter n hotter lor….like malaysia ah…

yo…lastly i got to connect back to this internet world. then onli i noe tats a lot of changes in this world…frens in KL  al got to go to University…Lilin got USM, Yinfong got UPM, sharon got UM, Maychuan got UTM n dunno where sinhui got. n oso another primary fren got UPM. hm…stil got some other frenz i havent ask…next time when i go back to malaysia like nobody there lo. yday i even dreamed tl leaving KL dunno go where..haha…but i think i would hav chance to hav a ride wif his Mivx gua…

next week my summer holidays goin to start. sure got a lot of plan ah…first goin to a college sport competition…travelling bout few hundred miles away, heard tat got chance to stay in hotel n al free…yah…i dun think i goin to play for games but juz a reserve. haha…there was class match last week. i played volleyball…ha..wif tat onli i noe how poor i am…like one who dunno volley ball at al…ya…3months of training are not enuf for me…shud i giv up at this time? hm…i hav no confidence to become like others…neway, i shud stay until next week…so tat i get to got to travel while go for competition…

then goin to visit my jap frenz house…juz simply go there look c look c o…since my holidays got bout 2months n i dunno how to spend. i am not allowed to go back to malaysia bcoz i am first year here. though, i dun think i wil go back if i’m allowed to. hehe…i shud take this chance to go around japan ah…travelling in japan is very expensive ah…this 2months time i may keep on travelling around onli…until i finish my money…o until i mis my room…my pc. i wil go to tokyo, osaka, nagoya to meet diff frenz ah…then mayb go down to kyushuu…hm…tats it gua…there is lot of fireworks anywhere in japan in summer. heard tat the fireworks would continue bout halk n hour n much more nicer than malaysia’s one…wow…cant wait for it. the fireworks show tat i wil go would be one of the biggest fireworks show in this area o…counted by shots of fireworks—13000shots…wow…i cant imagine by this numbers…but…think tat it is a lot…

hm…last week was my first time to visit japan’s cinema. not much changes compare to malaysia ah…juz tat i dun hav to listen to japan nation anthem ah…n i was watching japanese movie…n it’s no subtitle. luckily i stil cn understand wat r they toking about ah…mayb coz of i read the book about tat movie. hm…

hm…short buletin ends here. gud luck to frenz who goin far away from home…dun worry ah…u al cn go home whenever u fall homesick..hehe…me? stil enjoying life here!

最近都很少报告自己的消息了，

是因为没时间，没心情写报告，还是。。。也不知道什么啦

之前写了自己的心情上来，没想到那么快就被当事人看到，

还打了通电话来。我这么写，像是在生气吗？

心中有疑问，有怨言，有不满，

但也没有什么去生气的必要和权利。毕竟，到终我还是会说那不是到我管的事情。

很多朋友说我会去关心别人，说回来，有时甚至去干涉到别人的私隐。

我没察觉到这样的一点，到我认识了其中一个好朋友。

那之后，对于朋友，我尝试注意自己的举动，有没有超越那一条人与人之间的线。

偶尔普通的谈话，也能够察觉到别人的界限到哪儿，事后也应该处处小心，

以免踩到铁板。

是保持一种良好的关系，是保持一种人与人之间的距离，是保护自己.

当别人觉得他得罪自己的时候，不停地追问该怎么做是好之类的。

其实就是想他坐回自己就好了，朋友不是为了迎合自己而改变的。

该说的已经说了，自己觉得应该这样做的，这样是好的东西，

要不要听，要不要改还是归于自己的吧！毕竟自己还有一种标准，

或许跟别人是不一样的。

如果那朋友看了这文章，必会像太多的啦！希望他别看。

这不过是我抒发的空间，我也不知道他该怎么做才对。

自己也知道自己不好，却容许自己这种情况继续下去的时候，

就别去问别人该怎么做啦！有自己的主见吧！为何生活的事情

可以清楚地说喜欢和不喜欢，但是对于自己该不该做的事情却那么不清不楚。

再钻牛角尖也好，问别人也得不到答案的。自己逃不出自己的框框。。。

不明白的时候，就不明白好了。。。

跟朋友在网上聊天，不知是以前我没有发觉，还是他改变了。想法很顽固，只是说少少意见就说算啦我知道你要说什么的啦，你喜欢怎么说就怎么说啦！那么消极的说法，使我说得不对，还是他在放弃自己啊？那时他的性格吧！就是不愿说，有时我也觉得很累了，要去找话题，说说一些私人的东西就不说，朋友就是这样打声招呼，开玩笑两下就好了吗？关心一下却把别人拒于千里之外似的。那可以说是我不对，我不该用自己的标准去定位别人。但是，也只能说，我不知道该怎么去当这个朋友，是不是就该放弃，还是普普通通，大声招呼就好了呢？

今天，玩了好几种运动，羽球，排球，乒乓和篮球。哈！当然不是正式的游戏，就是玩玩而已。但是全部都很烂的啦！会跟不会是很大的距离，我往往就只是会一种运动，但是却没有办法好好掌握的。就纯粹不至于完全不会就好了吧！最近体育课都在玩棒球，我也懂少少了。哈！下星期游泳哦。。。明天要去买泳裤了。

还有啊！之前好像没说，最近学煮一点小东西吃，周末都没吃食堂的，自己煮。今天煮了洋葱煎蛋，还不错的。想要弄芙蓉蛋，但也不太记得有什么料，就知道是一大片的。哈！星期天有个活动，每个人都要带一样食品去，我也不知道该煮什么是好。上星期炒饭炒得不好吃，简单一点的东西就好了吧。再想想看吧！睡觉了。。。

经期吗？

觉得空虚，莫名其妙的！去打羽球打排球发泄一下，结果还是一样。

不知道是不是因为看了一本爱情小说，变得空虚和饥渴！自找苦吃哦！怎么办呢？

也不知道这样下去会持续多久的，是不是总会这样的啦！以前也是，现在也是。

现在这儿也没有什么朋友可以发泄，每天流连在网上，最近好像近视了，看东西变得蒙蒙了。是这样的吧！世界上好多寂寞的人，为什么不让我遇上另一个呢？还是我自己看不见而已呢？要我用日语说出自己想说的话，的确很难。用那些半熟不烂的日语交谈，自己也没什么信心去交女朋友了。怎么了？

少少投诉啊！考试成绩的确不错，但是不知为何少了那份喜悦感，我在干吗呀？今晚有种不想睡的感觉，但是明天会很惨。干吗要这样折磨自己。。。？？？是这样了吧。。。

10/6/2005 1124hr

I, would like to announce that, my first examination in Japan already over. How was it? I think…okie gua…i like to make mistake? yeah i do…but not tat i wanted to. no matter how, exam over dun care so much ah…wanna hav a good sleep but cant mis lunch time…so gotta stay up for a while, after lunch oso cant sleep straight away, will be fat.

wat shud i do now? i oso dunno…shud i go out ah…stay in this island for bout 3weeks oredi ah…thinking of where shud i go after this exam…but one thing is, tommorow wil be raining, said weather forecast. haha…think u oso heard b4  tat japan’s weather forecast wont get wrong easily ah. n it’s a raining season…means tat..sunday oso cant go out!? o no…i wanna buy this..buy tat…today is a sunny day, but i am tired…

no new for few weeks since my bday…hm…worked so hard so exam n get tired at last, feel tat, i did something. n when u finished the exam paper, step out of the class, n think tat i did well. the satisfaction seldom hav, for this exam, i think for certain paper mayb i can get well marks ah…i think onli ah. noe lah, i like to make careless mistake…n actually i din really put in effort to study when it comes to few paper left…sleep after u did something tat really meaningful, feel nice…thinking of raeding more ah…wil i do?my free time wil spend for my anime n dramas i think…

2 weeks over…is it relaxed ah? no class no club, onli gotta study myself according to my mood, paper end bout 11 in the morning then free…yeah..consider it as a relaxing time i think..at first bit tension ah…when the hardest sub over, life became so nice…haha!cya then…